RIP Midnite (My Big Baby Cat)

I have some horrible news to share with you today. On Wednesday morning, my neighbors dogs got into my yard and attacked my beautiful, amazing cat Midnite. We rushed him to the vet but they were unable to save his life and he died yesterday morning in the ICU. He was a strong and brave soul but I guess there was too much internal damage.

This is the worst blow yet. We are completely devastated and our little family was so hurt by this. It's unclear at this point if "justice" will be served but nothing can make the situation better. I don't know if we could have done anything differently to save him but I cannot stop replaying things in my head and heart.

He was absolutely the best cat. My beautiful ginormous brave peaceful baby. He is buried in the yard next to B.J. It gave me some peace to put him in the ground, to tuck him into a bed of clean towels and cashmere, his favorite. To know that he is at peace now, and perfectly still is better than seeing him in pain. But I would give anything to go back and change things. He didn't deserve this. He never did anything wrong. He NEVER did ANYTHING wrong. He was the perfect cat. He was the perfect friend. He was an amazing being with a kind heart and he was just beautiful in every way.

All of this has been just so fucked up. I want my baby back. My kittens 4th birthday is coming up in August. He should have lived 20 years.

Midnite, baby, I am so so so so so so so sorry. I will never ever ever forgive myself. But I hope you can forgive me sweetheart because I love you so much. I love you so so so much with all of my heart and I will never ever ever forget you. I know I let you down and I'm sorry we couldn't or didn't do more. You are at peace now and with your friend B.J. I love you, I love you. You were the best part of our family and the best friend. Everyone misses you so much and we don't know what to do without you. I love you and I'm so sorry.

Love Always,

Mom